“I’m a meat eater. I love me some barbecue.”
I stood and watched as my girlfriend unsheathed a rotisserie chicken from its bag. It struck me odd how we never acknowledge how disturbing the concept is. It would be difficult to imagine feeling as casual as we are with a chicken as with the idea of a human body being decapitated and disemboweled, carved into sections and cooked to be eaten. And not just to be eaten, but to be enjoyed perhaps over conversation. Imagine another animal favoring the the taste of a particular part of the human body with herbs, spices and marinades. Are we monsters? It makes me wonder if monsters are merely highly capable predators trying to maintain their status in the hierarchy of our animal kingdom because their survival depends on it.

My life is beginning to suck and my body is beginning to hurt. I haven’t been able to hang out with my friends because they are drinkers and don’t want to meet up until after 8 or 9 and by then I am only able to hang out for an hour or two before I have to get ready for work. My girlfriend hasn’t been very reliable at allowing me to sleep anywhere close to 8 hours. She texts me, which wakes me up suddenly and i cant get back to sleep. I want to turn my phone off, and I do most of the time, but that only seems to result in her physical entrance into the room. I get that she misses me, I miss her too. I just wish she understood how bad my body feels after months of not getting enough sleep. I can’t think straight. Everything blends together and I cannot remember whether something occurred yesterday or earlier today. I’m drinking too much coffee to try and stay awake otherwise I’ll fall asleep standing at work. I’m very close to letting my boss know that my schedule will need to change. I’m becoming bitter toward a lot of people. I’m become bitter toward my job because it is feeling more and more like I am always working the crappy shifts. I went into this thinking that if I made myself available for whatever I’d get to a good place. I did move up to shift lead, but now I’m stuck in graveyard and my only way to get a good shift is if someone leaves. I am debating whether I would be happier taking a pay cut and working a lower position than shift lead/ pay cut just to have the normal 9-5 schedule. Tempting. I can’t see this graveyard shift continuing unless something changes. Otherwise I’m going to have a psychotic episode.
-Your Friend and humble Narrator
So Rick Warren and Rep. Louie Gohmert of the great state of Texas seem to believe that the shooting in Aurora was devine retribution for teaching evolution and other perceived “secular attacks” on Christianity in our schools.
Aside from the sentiment being logically bankrupt, it pains me to think that while families are mourning the loss of loved ones there are people who would use this event to push a religious agenda. Of course this isn’t anything new and when it comes to assigning divine retribution to a hurricane or a run on butter at the local Piggly Wiggly, I usually dismiss it as the irrelevant nonsense that it is. I do however take issue when religious leaders and elected officials act on these beliefs to legislate both the condemnation and perversion of the pursuit of understanding our universe we live in and the intent of the 1st amendment. We live in a pluralist society and when people assert that their livelihood is under attack because it is not being given dominating preference over others we threaten the principles of the 1st amendment protecting said livelihood.
I love the constitution for the rights it protects and the way it is beautifully written. As I’ve gotten older I have realized how poorly we elect our leaders. This nation’s priorities have been carefully fought over by people who don’t really care all that much about me or my way of life (or most of us for that matter). The great fight for our wellbeing has been taken up by visionary people for the benefit of mankind as well as those who wish to shape our futures around their own limiting ideals. People are never talk. They never listen either. The discourse has become a shouting match. Why do all sorts of Americans wish to control each others lives, control the way we learn, love, or work for the benefit of the few over the many? I feel that for a nation’s voice that calls out for a change is met by a sharp shooter who devotes their lives to rhetoric and bending everyone toward their wants. Are people who wish to stop us all from bettering our lives good people? If we dare to put a limit on human suffering does that make us bad Americans? I have been told that this is the way the world is and that I should get used to it. I won’t. I can’t. I refuse to be the shithead they tell me I am supposed to be. When someone tries to tell me how supporting ideas that do not promote free thought and the advancement of our species as a whole, I tell them to fuck themselves. I have no tolerance for those who wish to oppress other people. I love the idea of America, but that’s the problem. On paper it is beautiful, but in motion there is an ugly majority, bereft of love and intelligence. The only people worth a shit anymore are the one’s who are marginalized. They are the thinkers.
There are certain people who will always say, “either lead, follow or get the hell out of the way.” And to those people I say “GO FUCK YOURSELVES!” Try thinking for yourself for a change and do some research of your own. And while you’re at it leave other people the fuck alone!